A broken guy.
One horrible incident.
When Lea Amelia landed her feet in San Francisco for her overseas study, her idea of freedom was simple, like eating junk food ten times a day, sitting in front of the TV in her PJs, or going out late with her friends without the need to check in with her mother constantly.
Then she met Andrew Jaya, her brothers’ best friend. A twenty-two-year-old guy whose physical appearance looked like he was crafted straight from God’s heavenly hands, but possessed a past as bleak as if it was drawn by Evil himself. A conflicted guy who wore sadness like nobody’s business beneath his mask, a perfect-looking mask she slowly peeled away.
He was also the guy who hurt her.
Suddenly, everything about her was no longer simple.
Andrew Jaya had convinced himself that not feeling was good for him. He'd been doing it splendidly for almost his entire life. But that was before his best friend’s sister stepped into his life and ruined it. After weeks of knowing Lea, all of those warm and wonderful feelings he’d long ago denied to himself started to reappear. Problem was, the brighter the light, the bigger the shadows that came with it.
His traumatic past refused to let him go.
When the unthinkable happened, the easiest thing to do was to run. But life often proves that the easiest way is usually the hardest.
My Thoughts :
******e-ARC was provided by the author for an honest review**********
Congratulations Ms. E. Mellyberry for your debut New Adult novel! I feel very proud I've met you through Goodreads and eventually , became friends! ( really, really good friends! )
When she offered me this book for read and review, I was beyond willing and happy to do it. You might think that I'll be biased since Melly and I were good friends? Uhmmm, so here's the thing : I'll temporary put our friendship aside ( Sorrrrrry M! ) and write a proper, unbiased, fair , impartial review. Here it goes :
Now, where do I begin ? Okay, the writing. I love how she wrote it. The words were free flowing ..and alive, like I'm hearing words and not just reading it. I also love that Asian vibe, even if the setting was in San Francisco , USA but the fact, that very familiar "Asian-ness" were being mentioned, like, rice, rice cooker and even the Asian-Mom-strictness?! I knooooow, I am Asian, a Filipina and reading this, it feels like home. I love that feeling.
I love the characters specially the heroine ,Lea , she has the BIGGEST heart of all! I cannot find fault in her except that she is just too good to be true! Is she a Martyr ? A Saint ? Or Both? Our hero, Andrew, on the other hand, was something else! I know he's both troubled and "trouble'. And I can't even imagine how could our sheltered good girl , Lea could instantly be attracted to this "something else Andrew" ?! Ahhh, maybe that "bad boy" vibe, Lea? Oooh, forget that he looks so damn good !
" Ahh. My God! Her mouth stayed open, but mute, stuck between A and O vowels. It felt unnatural as the creature standing in front of her. Saying that he was handsome would be an understatement of the year...
Word emphasis: Perfect. " <--------Me: 'nuff said. If Andrew's standing in front of me right now ...
So, let's just say... it all started with a "big crush", being attracted is perfectly normal. They are both single. Away from home. And yes freedom to explore every single possibility! Next : Getting to know each other. Andrew was all sweet , with all that flowers thing ( swoony! ) then suddenly became a different person when he, out of nowhere freaked out! Over a photo session?! ( Because "something" triggered from his "dark" memory! ) If I were Lea, I would think twice ?! But then, Lea was not me! Lea is Lea. Period. This. Lea. *No words*
It has been established from the start that Andrew was in battle with his inner demons. What exactly are those? That , I waited oh-so-slowly... oh-so painfully ! I want to know, I want to know! Many times , I was so tempted to take a peek on the later chapters ( to cheat?! Uhm, no! fnd out! ) ...or better yet, ask Ms. Melly! ..but I hold my tongue...or better yet hold my itchy fingers not to send her a message!
Darn! There is no shortcut here but to move along....
I enjoyed those cute, funny and sexy banters / encounters between them. That dinner and Lea's short , short black dress?! Priceless! I chuckled , giggled and smirked?! Really, Andrew?! Telling a girl, that she looked fat in that dress?! Waaaay to gooooo, Cassanova!!!
Soooo.. it looks like there's DEFINITELY something going on between these two....I can already feel my "swoon" building up! Until..... until THAT thing happened! Wha-wha-what-the %^&@ <insert curses here!> ?!!! I was.. I was.... *no words* I was shocked. Devastated. I ...I...don't know what to think?! All I can feel was my heartbeat racing this fast and my hands trembling! Nooooo waaaaaay!!!!!!!!!!!! No... no... no....Nooooooooooo!!!! It's doomed!!
Ohhh how I haaaaaate Andrew after that!! How could he?! How could he ?!! Tortured, broken, troubled or what??? That was just soooo wrong!!!!!!!!!! And Lea? Lea...Lea... Lea.... always the golden girl. Tsk. Tsk.Tsk..
Oh my freaking Melly? What came into you??? Do I really know you???? Apparently, I do not. And this even made me loooove you even more! Keep on doing something like this, I don't mind if you give me a nervous breakdown! Haha!
Overall, I LOVE everything. THAT ending, those two words from Andrew? Loaded. Will it be a happy ending? Or another bumpy journey ahead? THAT ....is something I'll be looking forward to!
To my fellow readers, if you want something unforgettable and takes the word "angsty" into a different level , you don't need to wait that long ! Release date : November 11 th. Go grab your copy!
I'm giving this book :
5 Angsty , Angsty Stars!